Cream Soda

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 17:39:14 GMT

Ha wow you guys. This journal is depressing to read, only because ...i was like 4 when i did all this, or so it seems. So whatever, even though i've already made a trillion million posts about this, my other journal is __sooperficial and even though i've taken a break from livejournal for a while, i will be back soon.

just asked to be added over there and i will add you.

Thu, 11 Dec 2003 23:13:06 GMT

Auto response from Chronic is werD: buying megan a christmas present :-D

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
hes getting me finding nemo=)
=))))))BIG SMILE BIG SMILE BIG SMILE
MY GRUMPY GILLS<33

Sun, 30 Nov 2003 18:36:24 GMT

Ill be posting this a couple times just so i get everybody!!

Ill be sending christmas cards to all of my friends!! If you want one (they are really cute ok)..send me your name and address. My email is mlawley@carolina.rr.com and you can trust me i wont stalk you PROMISE. But i just i really wanna send everybody christmas cards ok!!! So please, send me your info so i can send you one..EVERYBODYYY!!!!=)))

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heres to the men we love who dont love us.

Sun, 30 Nov 2003 01:11:08 GMT

Well im tired. Forreal.

I went to monroe mall today..nothing much in there except bath and body works.I got me some sweat pea lotion cause i had ran out. I went to this one store ive never heard of and got me 2 shirts for 4.99 =) I was happy with my little bargain, really.
Also, mom doesnt know i know..but she got me a marilyn purse!!!
(nastassia and jok, its that one i saw at carolina place!!!)
Im so excited..2 marilyn purses for christmas, you just dont know!!!! YAYAYAY.

But anyways..it was cold as hell today, and i dont really have a jacket to wear thats like...casual. I have my aeropostale one, which makes me look like an eskimo and 98405 pounds heavier. I really dont need that after thanksgiving.

After the mall i went to wally world. I found this cute cute makeup bag, its small but adorable!! I swear i just..its so cute. So i got a few lil makeup thingers to fill up my new makeup bag and just. I dunno im so in love with it cause its so fucking cute.

My new obsession: Willa Ford.
I remember i was obsessed with her 2 years ago Lol. Now im just..i found all my willa stuff and i dont know im just whoa. Shes SO much like me, its so wierd. I mean you know how long my hair was...hers was long...we both got our hair cut like in the same week. I just found that out.
She also has a pomeranian which is wierd..cause im getting one y'know?
Its just...wierd. So many other things.
Her new cd comes out next year and im super excited, i cant wait. I got her CD Single today "A Toast To Men" Ft. May (whoever that is)..ive had it on repeat since i got home.

Im Cold.
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Well im tired. Forreal.

I went to monroe mall today..nothing much in there except bath and body works.I got me some sweat pea lotion cause i had ran out. I went to this one store ive never heard of and got me 2 shirts for 4.99 =) I was happy with my little bargain, really.
Also, mom doesnt know i know..but she got me a marilyn purse!!!
(nastassia and jok, its that one i saw at carolina place!!!)
Im so excited..2 marilyn purses for christmas, you just dont know!!!! YAYAYAY.

But anyways..it was cold as hell today, and i dont really have a jacket to wear thats like...casual. I have my aeropostale one, which makes me look like an eskimo and 98405 pounds heavier. I really dont need that after thanksgiving.

After the mall i went to wally world. I found this cute cute makeup bag, its small but adorable!! I swear i just..its so cute. So i got a few lil makeup thingers to fill up my new makeup bag and just. I dunno im so in love with it cause its so fucking cute.

My new obsession: <u>Willa Ford</u>.
I remember i was obsessed with her 2 years ago Lol. Now im just..i found all my willa stuff and i dont know im just whoa. Shes <B>SO</B> much like me, its so wierd. I mean you know how long my hair was...hers was long...we both got our hair cut like in the same week. I just found that out.
She also has a pomeranian which is wierd..cause im getting one y'know?
Its just...wierd. So many other things.
Her new cd comes out next year and im super excited, i cant wait. I got her CD Single today "A Toast To Men" Ft. May (whoever that is)..ive had it on repeat since i got home.

Im Cold.
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Sat, 29 Nov 2003 02:40:21 GMT

c0ppErt0nE babEy: Litl JessNich0ls: oh and ps tell your friend i think she looks pretty in that one pic with the little thingy on her head.
c0ppErt0nE babEy: the crown pic
c0ppErt0nE babEy: Litl JessNich0ls: one day i was at my bfs and were all lookin at her pics right and im like... she just dontlook real.. like.. and he goes shes just to perfect
c0ppErt0nE babEy: 0O0O0O MEGAAAAAAAAAN
ToXic Sugarcane: wtf
ToXic Sugarcane: who is that
ToXic Sugarcane: wtf
ToXic Sugarcane: im scared
c0ppErt0nE babEy: Litl JessNich0ls: like i mean she looks real but like wtf her face is like clear as shit. and all like tan and her cute little fuckingnose and her eyes wtf.

omg seriously.
this is too sweet.<33 makes me feel so good y'know?
wow.
i love you.

ButterFlyLuVMC88: you are so pretty
ButterFlyLuVMC88: and you are funny too
ButterFlyLuVMC88: you and that little laugh
ButterFlyLuVMC88: lol
ButterFlyLuVMC88: like pig
ButterFlyLuVMC88: lol
ButterFlyLuVMC88: lmfao
ToXic Sugarcane: lmfao
ButterFlyLuVMC88: you are so sweet too

im just. i dont know.<3 ::BIG SMILE::

and omg at people being so fucking nice today. its really..i dont know..its been a great day. I LOVE YOU EVERYBODY.<3 WOW I have the best friends ever.

EDIT

OMG Its snowing at mawmaw's=) And maybe here tonight? HOW EXCITING!!!

to my mother.

Fri, 28 Nov 2003 02:02:01 GMT

The woman in my life wakes me up in the morning
With a gentle touch
She kisses me and whispers "darling
This day was made for us"

The woman in my life has a way of smiling
That can turn a gray sky blue
It's just like her without trying
To make the whole world new

And she's there when I need her
My guardian angel
In the dark I can see her
Here by my side

The woman in my life catches me when I've fallen
And holds me like a baby when I'm hurt
No matter how high I climb
She guides me safely back to Earth

And she's there when I need her
My guardian angel
In the dark I can see her
Here by my side

The woman in my life says I'm the one she prayed for
And all she's ever gonna need
But she's the one my heart was made for
And that's the way it's always gonna be

Fri, 28 Nov 2003 00:32:04 GMT

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Im thankful for..

Thu, 27 Nov 2003 20:00:38 GMT

My Mother- She has inspired me in so many ways. Shes made me who i am today and without her i doubt id even be alive. No doubt, she is the greatest, most beautiful woman alive. I can only hope that when im older ill be like her, have the strength to go on through all the hard times, be good to others even if they are mean to me. Her whole world is falling apart, and im right there with her along the way.

Christine- It seems like this girl has stuck up for me since i was 5 feet tall and 200 pounds. Yes, we get in those once a month arguements, but thats the whole point (once a month, damn you aunt flow). I love her to death, no matter what happens i know i can talk to her about something. Through EVERYTHING shes been with me, right there by my side. Shes not what people make her out to be, and she doesnt care what people think of her. People like her inspire me. Shes going to be famous one day, i wont lie, im seriously jealous. But i love her to death, im going to support her. Shes going to be a supermodel, MY BEST FRIEND A SUPER MODEL!! Im a lucky bitch. No doubt ill be the one thats with her while the papparazzi (sp?) follows her everywhere. You can find me in the Enquieireiurier.

Nastassia- My partner in crime, literally. Your a true friend, no doubt about that. Any girl would be lucky to have you as a friend. You know that saying about being right next to you saying "damn that was fun" or something? I can sooo put that in this situation. I wont lie, I miss us going to CCM and On the Border all the time. I really do. And our shopping cart adventures. SHIIIIT good times<333

Jacque - I can always count on you to cheer me up. I swear, though anything you can make me smile. That alone is something to be thankful for. We need more happy people like you in this world. Without you im sure i wouldnt be as happy as i am right now!<33

Those are the main people. I dont trust alot of people or let anybody into my life like that. These are the people i look forward to everyday. The people who make my life 10 times better.

<33

Thu, 27 Nov 2003 04:47:58 GMT

THANKS FOR THE 10 COMMENTS ON MY LAST POST half of which were done by me.
yea just thanks.
lol im kidding

so whatever today has been a shitty day. theres been like 3 ppl ive enjoyed talking to today. but i wont mention them since none of my friends like each other.
ha.

i really wish my mom would stop smoking. it smells like shit in this house.
damnit.

Stats...
-- Name: Megan
-- Birthdate: 01/16/89
-- Birthplace: Crown Point, Indiana
-- Current Location: Charlotte, North Carolina
-- Eye Color: Green
-- Hair Color: Blonde
-- Height: 5'5"
-- Weight: omg
-- Righty or Lefty: Righty

Describe...
-- Your heritage: Moms- Hungarian... Dads-Cherokee
-- The shoes you wore today: none i slept all day
-- Your hair: The longest part reaches my shoulders..bangs...bunch of layers..bleached highlights...crazayy
-- Your eyes: big, cat lookin' green eyes that make me look high all the time
-- Your weakness: Im lazy, and i let things get to me that shouldnt
-- Your fears: everything, seriously. bugs, chainsaws, food.
-- Your perfect pizza: GREASY CHEESE<33
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: world peace

Tell...
-- Your most overused phrase on AIM: "wtf".."yea".."sure.."oh really?".."LFMALFMAMFOAMFA.".."scowww"
-- Your thoughts first waking up: "what the hell"
-- Your best physical feature: i have no good physical feature, but if it was a life or death situation it would be my eyes.
-- Your bedtime: whenever im tired
-- Your greatest accomplishment: being alive right now.
-- Your most missed memory: those "shopping-sprees" at concord mills. 9 MORE MONTHS, NASTASH<33

You prefer...
-- Pepsi or Coke: Coke, official soft drink of NASCAR.
-- McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's
-- Single or group dates: um single? group? does it matter? as long as your together, thats all.
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: hahahahahahaha i feel like im high when im reading this. LIPTON.
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee: white chocolate mocha with extra whipped creame from Starbucks

Do you...?
-- Smoke: No.
-- weed: lol
-- Cuss: duh
-- Sing well: Lol nope
-- Take a shower everyday: ewww yes please.
-- Have a crush(es): yep....?
-- Who are they: damn your good.
-- Do you think you've been in love: definatly
-- Want to go to college: sure
-- Like high school: i guess
-- Want to get married: WTF what average girl doesnt?
-- Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: psh no
-- Believe in yourself: its rare
-- Get motion sickness: omg yes.
-- Think you're attractive: .....
-- Think you're a health freak: not too bad..i can be..sometimes i just dont care.
-- Get along with your parents: yes
-- Like thunderstorms: NO HELL NO ....scow.
-- Play an instrument: I can play somewhere over the rainbow on the piano and twinkle twinkle little star lolololol

Have you ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?: No=)
-- If so, was it mixed company: ..
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: HAHA YEA. LADY.
-- Been caught "doing something": no im good.
-- Been called a tease: Everyday
-- Gotten beaten up: psh no not with these guns.
-- Shoplifted: HAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA<333333333
-- If so, did you get caught: LFMAOLMFAOLFAFAOF.
-- Changed who you were to fit in: Yes, but im no longer like that.

The future...
-- Age you hope to be married: hopefully sometimes before 70
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 2 or 3...and i duno
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: 2 words. Disney World.
-- How do you want to die: your trying to jinx me i know it.
-- Where you want to go to college: Art Institute somewhere..i heard theres one in memphis? ill look into that.
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: Clothing design, marketing, cosmotology. whatever. anything that i like. i dont want to be stuck with something i hate.
-- What country would you most like to visit: Hungary

Opposite sex (or the same?)...
-- Best eye color? Blue or brown
-- Best hair color? anything dark
-- Short or long hair?: well i dunno its gotta look halfway decent.
-- Best height: taller then me
-- Best weight: ..um well i like muscles not fat=) so like 200?
-- Best articles of clothing: none at all.
-- Best first date location: WTF.
-- Best first kiss location: under the stars AHHH<33 lol im jk i duno WTF.
-- Number of girls I have kissed in my life: Lol!!!! one
-- Number of girls you have made out with: none ew
-- Number of girlfriends you've had: None.
-- Number of boys I have kissed: 4
-- Number of boys you have made out with: ewewwewew just 3..one of them was EW OMG.
-- Number of boyfriends you've had: 4?
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: 1
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: hmm 5
-- Number of CDs that I own: too many
-- Number of piercings: 0
-- Number of tattoos: None
-- Number of scars on my body: 3
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: i dont regret anything

my milkshake brings all the boys to the yawwd.

Tue, 25 Nov 2003 23:45:49 GMT

HEHEHEHEHE IM SO HAPPY OMGOGMOG HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!11
lolololol today just i was sitting in class thinking about what i was gunna write in my journal today..im a dork.
and i already forgot.

Anyways...lololol @ all this girl-drama all of a sudden. Im sure they know who they are im just saying...
1. "Milkshake" is just a song. Half the female population is currently in love with it. Including me.
2. I have no problem with one of my best friends having me and another person as a best friend. Its rare that ill get jealous, only if you get something that i want ( which goes along with everybody, dont think im a selfish bitch when i say that, because all girls do that.) So far, nobody has nothing that i dont already have, so no hard feelings im just saying, you know?
----kk i think thats it. nvm this if you dunno whats going on.
fucking estrogen.

Im so so so happy you just dont know im in such a fucking good mood. Yesturday evening i was like WHOA I WANT TO GET HIGH i was seriously whew depressed, dont you just HaTE pms. I seriously just wanted to kill somebody.

Today i went out to eat with pops. Calabash shrimp dinner omgogmggg<33
I told him since i wasnt going to see him for Thanksgiving id bake him a german chocolate cake. One day i hate him, then they next i love him. Hes my dad though, you know? You cant just hate your dad...only for like 2 days but you know you love your dad ok sup.

LOLOLOL @ ME THINKING MY PHONE WAS BROKE. ALL I HAD TO DO WAS TURN IT OFF THEN ON AGAIN HAHAHAHA.

"and they're like..its better then yours
damn right
its betta then yorr'ss.."

I MIGHT EDIT LATER OK BYE

Mon, 24 Nov 2003 21:57:21 GMT

Hi people. Im back.

Sorry this journal is so hard to read. i just cant seem to find a layout i like. But i will redo it for the 904836th time after im done writing this.

So these past few days have been rather stressful. School. Guys. Parents. Friends. Queeves. Its all giving me a big headache and a shit-load of PMS cramps which is never good. But for some reason, im really happy. Im happy to be alive..and i have a life. Haha. Bout time, damnit. Look at me being all serious.

My moms appointment with the lawyer went really good. She'll be able to get child support and allomony (Sp?), whic is really good. I mean ill get to go shopping once a month now=).

This weekend was pretty much spent with Nastassia, Jacque, Lars, and Paul..umm and April..but yea i wont get into that drama. I had fun, no doubt my nukka. I <3 my homie slices. We watched Blow. Id blow johnny depp anyday. That movie made me hot. We went to Carolina Place, the mall around Nastassias house...first time ive went shopping with them since my shoplifting days. Good times good times. I have 46 dollars...and i couldnt find anything in Victorias Secret.=(. I wanted the diamond bra heidi was wearing in the fashion show but its 50 dollars and just ahh=( I wanted to cry or something. Im so spoiled, really.

I went to Tashia's on friday after school to get my hair did. It turned out really cool, i like it alot. I took some pictures.

She bleached my hair and put my natural color lowlights on the top layer of my hair. I like it alot, she just went so crazy when she cut it. Its different, edgy, kind of. I love it to death, but some people look at me like a punk or some shit. Im still the same megan as before.

I called my aunt yesturday. I was so excited to talk to her, i love her to death. Shes like the best aunt ever. She got me something really really nice for christmas (i have a feeling its her pink diamond ring<333)..and shes working on getting my pomeranian. She wants to get me a girl one, so i can name is marilyn monroe. Shes so loving the fact i wanna name it that, shes also trying to get it to be white, like hers. AHH IM SO EXCITED YOU JUST DONT KNOW.

So..ill be updating more often, i promise. And commenting also. Dont take me off your list, please. Im too good of a friend y'know. JK BUT I AM OK BYE.

EDIT: I NEED A JOB
And i just wanted to do this ok because im bored .

1- Nars blush - Deep Throat
2- Hard Candy eye shadow - Old Skool
3- Benefit eyelash curler<3
4-Christian Dior Eyeliner - Violet
5-Cover Girl CleaN makeup (obviously the whitest color they have)
6-Christian Dior Mascara -BLACK
7-Vicotorias Secret Brow Pencil - BlondeEDIT: LMFAOFMALFMO @ HOW I SPELLED VICTORIAS.
8- MAC Eyeglass - Patent white

I use those things everyday. just sayin. that was the funnest thing ive done all day<3

Thu, 20 Nov 2003 22:20:21 GMT

My favorites from last night<33333333333333
ESPECIALLY THE LAST ONE. THATS MY NEW BACKGROUND SERIOUSLY CAUSE SHES SO FUCKING HOT.

but ill edit this entry later cause im doing a survey=)
bye.

Tue, 18 Nov 2003 23:33:08 GMT

KK IM GOING BACK TO SCHOOL TOMMORROW.

I feel okay. But you know i cant miss anymore im just..i cant.
I called the school today, they said there wasnt really a limit to how many days i miss its just that i wont have that long to make work up and stuff.

so yeah. cool. not really. i forgot all of my things i needed for homework in my locker and so..that sucks monkey balls. =(

Um so yeah i got Kid Rocks new cd because he is the fucking man! WOO. sorry ok ill stop.

Parents are divorcing again.
lolollllololllllllollllllooooooll.
WHATEVER IM MOVING IN 6 MONTHS SUP.
thats going to be fooooooooooooreeeeeeeeevvvvvverrrrrrrrr.
but i dont care...................

So im so hyped this weekend is gunna be off the heezy (lol who says that anymore?). Nastash's party...and just yea im getting my hair did its gunna be all..
uber cute.
Lol im sounding like that guy off of E!..you know the one with the cute ass hair and pretty teeth.

But anyways..im getting bangs...
like you know how on legally blonde she was all like
IM GOT BAAANNNGS. LMFALFMAOF ok gah im hyper.
V8 juice does that? hmmm...

So i filled out this long-ass survey and ... MY COMP LOCKED UP CAUSE ITS A DICK JUST LIKE MY DAD and yea sorry.

Im outtie.

Sun, 16 Nov 2003 02:20:54 GMT

Just thought maybe id give a real update.

So yea im sick. The flu..
and right now i feel like Lil' Kim cause my throat hurts baddd.
So i left from school early friday, went home, took some medicine, and fell asleep right after i took it. Its some kind of tylenol cold stuff? i dunno..but yeah..
then later that day me and ma went to go rent some movies
**the fat latino guy that works there kept askin "how you doiiin tonight honay"**
seriously anyway
i got Nemo, Daddy Daycare, and Some Like It Hot.
<3333333333333333333333333 @ Marilyn in that movie.
at the checkout the guy was like informing me on all this stuff about marilyn like i didnt know who the hell she was...wtf.

So yea my weekend was eventful! ::sarcasm::...

I wanted to go see Elf with my musketeers but ahh i couldnt so..whatev all my aunt jemimmas.

Tommorrow im going out to get my dad something for his birthday since i couldnt tonight (its monday). Also..tommorrow is my parents anniversary. Ahhhh what do i do.

I should like sleep outside so they can get busy.
i dont wanna be around during that y'know?...sick sick sick.

Oh yea did i mention Thursday its like everybody fucking loved me?..i swear it was like i dunno everybody was talking to me and shit wtfff! THATS NOT NORMAL OK CAUSE JUST im stupid and stuff and just...
i dunno i was flattered<3
thank you to all you nice people who talked to me and were my friend thursday you made me feel special.=)

Sat, 15 Nov 2003 18:10:47 GMT

Toxic is my new sn

ToXic Sugarcane: how come u nevertalk to me anymore
c0ppErt0nE babEy: ?
ToXic Sugarcane: :-(u jus never talk to me about things anymore
c0ppErt0nE babEy: o
c0ppErt0nE babEy: k
ToXic Sugarcane: ...well
c0ppErt0nE babEy: ...well now you know how kelli feels
ToXic Sugarcane: huh?
c0ppErt0nE babEy: because im always with you or doing something with you
c0ppErt0nE babEy: and this is how kelli feels
c0ppErt0nE babEy: cus im never doing ne thign with her
c0ppErt0nE babEy: or taling with her
c0ppErt0nE babEy: so start thinking about how other people feel instead of just r self
ToXic Sugarcane: ???
ToXic Sugarcane: why cant we all jus be friends
ToXic Sugarcane: cause me and kelli are friends
c0ppErt0nE babEy: what am i not ur freidn now?
c0ppErt0nE babEy: okay wtf
c0ppErt0nE babEy: bye.
ToXic Sugarcane: wtf no
ToXic Sugarcane: i thought thats what you were sayin and i was wondering why
ToXic Sugarcane: sorry for misinterpreting you
ToXic Sugarcane: i just think its wierd you dont wanna talk to me about anything
c0ppErt0nE babEy: i have nothing to talk to you about
c0ppErt0nE babEy: i have stuff to do
c0ppErt0nE babEy: i have to go bey

i dunno what to think about this.
i love it how i have the flu and im loosing good friends=)
sarcasm

im counting the days till i move.

Thu, 13 Nov 2003 03:22:02 GMT

Does anybody know any good phsycics? umm if i spelled that right whatever.

but yea if you do comment or IM me
o0 Lube 0o

especially in the charlotte area.

me and mom want to go see one.

ps im seeing elf this weekend yayay<3

Wed, 12 Nov 2003 02:16:33 GMT

im soo in love with this picture omg<3

my boobs hurt. what do i dooo.
sorry for all the guys im just sayin my boobs hurt.

Tue, 11 Nov 2003 21:48:26 GMT

Ahh i havent updated in a while. well like 2 days but still as you can tell..thats a while for me.

So today was my off day. I didnt go to bed till about 3 last night, so i slept until 12..even tho i was supposed to get up at nine. woops.

So i got up, watched Gladiator..which confused the hell out of me. Took a bath with my new caswell-massey bubble bath and now im here. fun i guess.

Today mom is supposed to call the agency about the commercial to see if they have any information about the casting and what-not. Im kind of excited but i dont want to give my hopes up yet. I guess its better to be excited then worried i wont get it...well im worried but still excited..ok w/e haha. Ummm i heard something about harris teeter? i wonder if ill get to meet that angus beef guy lmfao. But it might not be harris teeter..

whatever..i still dont know who my agent is. how ghetto is this.

Umm so what do you guys think of self-absorbed people? I mean whats your opinion on them and how do you deal with them? Just wondering. I have dealt with alot of it lately. Im just taking it all in, kind of laughing about it. Funny how they arent as great as they think.

Tommorrow i have to make up three test..which is going to be a pain in the ass. Maybe next monday i can stay after school and retake some of them..ahh good idea.

Lol i was talking to bobby last night and just...his friend court made up this word..
tweener
lfmaolfmafmasofmalsfjksdfhl;kf i swear i died when i heard that ok.

today is me and andys 2 month.<333 i wrote this long ass letter but im afraid to read it to him cause then id feel gay and yea.<333333 the end.

lolololol ok so if your on my friends list you have to comment at least once a week or im cutting you and makign this friends only BYE.

ps i forgot about my xmas list!!!!!!!!1

1. Kenny Chesney's xmas cd...All i want for christmas is a real good tan
2. Anything from Agent Provocateur<33
3. Strawberry Daquari Candle from Trends
4. Tigi Bed Head Boy Toy/ Girl Toy Hair shine
5. Quality time with the family =)

Sun, 09 Nov 2003 15:22:30 GMT

finally my layout looks kinda good.

im fixin to go to the reniseainsnce festival sooo booyow

so excited
im going to get my hand waxed! LMDFAOAKKSDJ
and ill buy you things too bye.
sorry im hyper ok.

just look at this picture of marilyn i tore out @ the docters office okay..

i swear i dont know why im so obsessed with her. shes beautiful.

ok im off...i should be leaving any time now woooot.

Sun, 09 Nov 2003 00:56:27 GMT

wow i love seeing i had 90839086 comments (well it seemed like it ok) on my last post. keep up the good work.
lol @ me sounding like a teacher.
Just because everybody is doing it...





	
	
	
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How compatible with me are YOU?

just thought id share a kodak moment with you all.

and i feel lame for having my journal public. but i dont want to make it friends only. so now im 1 out of 9084684 who have a public livejournal. im such a misfit.

Hello friends, boyfriend, non-commentors, and strange people who read my journal that i dont know.

Sat, 08 Nov 2003 17:37:03 GMT

Results of your Self-Esteem Test

Your score = 35 out of 100

What does your score mean?
This likely comes as no surprise to you, but you have relatively low self-esteem. Your answers on the test showed a lot of doubt about your own abilities, lack of self-love and some attitudes and beliefs that are contributing to your confidence problem. Essentially, you've got yourself trapped in a vicious circle; if you believe that you cannot do something, your belief causes you to think and behave in a way that leads to your eventual failure. Chances are that you are quite frustrated with this situation and would like to change. Self-esteem, after all, is key to happiness and success. If you don't believe in yourself, how will you find the courage to pursue the career you desire, form healthy relationships or find your place in the world? The good news is that you can work on building your sense of worth…and you can start right now, today. There is a wide range of resources available out there on the subject, or you might even want to contact a therapist if you're not sure you can tackle it on your own. You'll certainly be glad you made the effort.

I think i might look into a therapist. But i mean whenever i try to talk to people about my self esteem problems, they all think i want attention or something. The fuck @ that? I dunno. But im trying to prove my point here, that i have --- that much confidence. Not much, but i want to feel better about myself. And everytime i start feeling better about myself theres always that one person who ruins it. And sometimes its even the same person.
But what if this person is your friend? are they no longer a friend?
i dont know. whatever.

anyways...

i love days like these. Its cloudy and just..it feels like winter, kinda. Its hot outside so it kind of ruins the moment lol.

Ugh. Back to the bad shit. I havent heard anything from Matthew about my commercial. This week ill call or get mom to call and see when the casting is or something i dont know. I hate getting my hopes up like this. Of course this modeling doesnt help my self esteem at all. Maybe if i were successful it would help, because now its going to bring all these thoughts in my head like "im not pretty enough" .. "im not tall enough".. "im not outgoing enough"..

whatever though. fuck all this.

I commented on peoples journals. Hopefully ill get more comments because i love comments.=)
and ill be adding new people just cause i feel like it bye.

PS I THINK IM GETTING A POMERANIAN=)<3

Thu, 06 Nov 2003 22:31:30 GMT

Everytime i try to fly, i fall. Without my wings i feel so small.

Oh how im in love with this song<3 Just thought id say.

Today .. was ok. I mean nothing great really happend. Well yea but then chris n kelli played a trick on me and just ugh i felt really gay after that. thats not cool. bitches<3333

Tommorrow is Friday. Finally. For some reason it seems like this week went slow as hell. I was supposed to go out of town with my dad this weekend but im going to see if Andy can come over.

Speaking of Andy, its been really funny, but weird, lately. Lindsay you may be reading this...or she might not..mwhahjhjwhahhhaaahajasd...anyways yea its just been stressful. I dont know why, i just dont like easy girls. GAH sorry im mean. Well im not, only to people i dont like. I dont give a shit if shes the "reason me and Andy are together now". whatever. i dont need help from nobody. ok. thanks.
ps those eyes are mine.

So about my dog. My aunt will most likely get me one. I just have to ask her on my own and id feel like a pushover if i asked her lol. i mean dang u dont just tell a family member what you want for christmas you know? your posta be like "you dont have to get me anything" and smile.

but yea i just want a dog bye.

Megans Christmas List Pt. 3
Most will be pictures.
All things are from VS<3
1. Satin Corset Dress

2. Corset Gown

Seriously i want this. Bad.
3. Ruched Mesh Bustier (you know that sounds good haha)

4. Sequin Lace Balconet

5. Leapard Babydoll

=) bye

Thu, 06 Nov 2003 03:50:07 GMT

Nobody fucking messes with my man.
RAWR!!!

Cont. Megans Xmas List
1. Pomeranian (my aunt will get me one fa sho)
2. DIAMONDS<33
3. White Oleander DVD
4. Victorias Secret gift card (at least 100 bucks, dont be cheap)
5. Malibu heels<3

goodnight.

oh my fucking mother fucking god

Wed, 05 Nov 2003 02:33:51 GMT

i love him so much<3

i swear
just
im almost crying<3=)

ElmoPimpsHoes16: i love u more thats all there is to it
o0 Lube 0o: its driving me mad
o0 Lube 0o: lol noo
o0 Lube 0o: i love you more
ElmoPimpsHoes16: yea
ElmoPimpsHoes16: nope prove it
o0 Lube 0o: "love is when you are kept awake at night with thoughts of him..and when sleep finally finds you.. he is waiting there in your dreams." -albert einstein
o0 Lube 0o: lmfao he didnt really say that but thats just me and i dont see u doign that
ElmoPimpsHoes16: lmao
o0 Lube 0o: LMFO
ElmoPimpsHoes16: iw as like wtf i know thats not albert einstine
o0 Lube 0o: lmfao
o0 Lube 0o: anyways back to the subject
ElmoPimpsHoes16: lol
ElmoPimpsHoes16: i love u more
o0 Lube 0o: lol
o0 Lube 0o: why then?
o0 Lube 0o: why do you love me?
ElmoPimpsHoes16: bc you make my days so much better when i hear your voice or think of u i get nervus and butterflys in my stomic
ElmoPimpsHoes16: at night your what i think about and i wish i could fall asleep with u in my arms and wake to your beautiful face
ElmoPimpsHoes16: the way u talk to me and the way i act around me i just love you
ElmoPimpsHoes16: your so beautiful funny and sweet
o0 Lube 0o: omg your gunna make me cry
o0 Lube 0o: :'((turn the frown upside down)
o0 Lube 0o: omf lmfo im sucha dork i love you
ElmoPimpsHoes16: i love you to
o0 Lube 0o: that was so sweet
ElmoPimpsHoes16: thanks baby
ElmoPimpsHoes16: i ment it
o0 Lube 0o: aww
ElmoPimpsHoes16: everything i said when i didnt have u that week or w/e
ElmoPimpsHoes16: its like i missed you more then ever i just wasnt the same without u
o0 Lube 0o: aww i know, same w you=(
ElmoPimpsHoes16: :-)
ElmoPimpsHoes16: :'(
o0 Lube 0o: aww wuts that face for
ElmoPimpsHoes16: bc i love you so so so much
ElmoPimpsHoes16: and i cryed like all night that night we broke up
o0 Lube 0o: me tooo=(

Tue, 04 Nov 2003 19:34:38 GMT

i get everything i want. kiss my mass.

ewwwwwwwwww gah
i cant stand people who are so caught up in theirselves.
like i dunno.
all they think about it how great they are. or they complain about something just for attention.
heh what fuck heads.

anyways..i need to start my christmas list.
ill just..i dunno ill start it now k.
and im gunna type it in here.
5 things each post k.
just in case anybody wants to get me anything LMF just kiddin.

but yea anyways
Megan's Christmas List
1. Nikon Coolpix 2100 Digital Camera
2. "Kandace" - Guess by Marciano (shoes)
3. Pear gift set @ Victorias Secret
4. Bella Comforter from target<333333333333
5. Santas Helper Pj's from VS

just cause you know thats cute! I have the pink ones with santa clause on them from last year. they are so cute<3333

im just yea. i havent heard anything about the commercial. fucking OTM i hate this shit. you know what else is gay..they didnt even tell me that my contract was up and just made it so i was with them for another year. HOW NICE.
so im just going to get gene to set up a photoshoot with me sometime soon. i think i might go get my hair done or something...maybe go blonder with brown lowlights? i dont know. tashia can help me figure something out. last time she put copperish red tones in my hair but i dont see them anymore. so i have to think of something different.
anyways back to the modeling stuff
since my parents both work in the photo industry i have those hookups you know. so i can get free pictures and find pretty portfolios. just...Gene will help me.

oh how every girl wants to be a victorias secret model. hey molly sims is from kentucky representin! so i mean theres no doubt a girl from NC can do it=) I Just need to get signed with an agency like elite or ford or W. something like that.
i mean i have a non-exclusive contract so therefore i can do that..but whats the point if they roll-over my contract another year without telling me or someshit. ugh whatever

i type too much in this thing
and like 4 people comment. wow 2 more people then last time
whatev
why am i in such a bad mood? lol ok.....

ps like my new layout...wowoww so pink and pretty